Precious is what God has placed within us.

There has been a stirring of debate for many years. 

1.) Is it a blob of tissue, meaning nothing and in the end a blob of tissue is removed with no resemblance of the human species? 

2.) Or is it a human being from conception?

My beliefs, although religious, are directly science backed (mixed with a tad bit of common sense).
My question is, 'if I am dead, deceased, or expired when my heart STOPS beating, then wasn't I alive, anew and a perfect human being when my heart STARTED beating?' Any other way of thinking would mean that all of our lives are futile, meaningless and pointless. A human becomes a human AT conception. If all environments are good and the new human fetus is left to develop for the duration of the time needed, you will have a brand new human baby. A baby with a destination, a future, a soul, and an ability to change the world, to do great things or to be our next great leader? I have a sweet friend that says she never married, she says "I just assume that the love of my life that God had picked for me may have been aborted." That is a chilling thought. Potential people with lives, dreams and goals. Possibly the doctor that God chose to find the cure for cancer, or the cure for multiple sclerosis or how to heal the brain or spinal cord after injury. What have we lost through abortion, or rather who?

All across the country in October we peacefully and prayerfully stand for life, for the chance to have a birthday, for the opportunity to help a young lady that is in a situation that she did not plan to be in. It is called LIFE CHAIN. There is no judgement, no hatred, not condemnation, but in love we appeal to God to help us to help others. Life Chain is not only about pro-life or pro-choice, it is about reaching the woman that chose abortion through tears and secrecy and never dealt with the pain it caused her then and every anniversary of that day. How the young man put on a clean white shirt and walked away or told her to "get rid of it." It is about another young lady in the same situation that knows she can't raise a baby right now but truly loves the life she carries. It is about finding resources and help for the 15 year old that got in over her head but wants to raise her baby, finish school and make a life for both of them. It is about being there for these young ladies, it is about saving babies and about families that are unable to bear children of their own that have cried themselves to sleep many nights praying that they could have a child. It is about fulfilling that desire in an infertile couple by connecting babies with families to love them.

I don't believe that it is a woman's choice to decide life or death. I do believe it is her decision to use birth control if she is not looking to become pregnant. It is a woman's body but it is an entirely different human being with a unique DNA, separate from the maternal host. Life Chain is about so much more.
* It is about the 8 year old boy that stood in 2016 in the Life Chain event with his mother. It is about how afraid he was that someone would hurt him but he prayed, he stood and he quietly sang to himself and the Lord. The following Monday, his teacher instructed the class to write about their weekend. This brave 8 year old wrote about why he stood, because he loves babies, and he wanted to make a difference. Little did he know the impact that he would make on his teacher and many other teachers at that school. You see, they had made a decision to abort long ago and struggled often with that decision, that they would give anything to change. They called this young man's mother and ask her how they would go about privately finding counseling for their grieving hearts.
* It is about the young 20 year old that was over-scheduled with nursing classes and found herself pregnant, and knew she could not focus on a new baby, but wanted to know her options.
* It is about the 33 year old mother of 4 that was violently raped by a stranger and became pregnant. Knowing the love she has for her children, she didn't think she could love this baby the same and chose to have him and place him with a family that could love him like he deserved. He didn't deserve the death sentence because of the sins of his father. He deserved a chance to be loved and cherished and she deserved a chance to heal and move on.
* It's about the 12 year old that was sexually abused by her father and became pregnant. She is more afraid of killing her baby than birth itself. But her greatest fear is her father. It is about making things go in the right direction for her, for once in her life and to give her the life back that she deserves.
* It is even about the 17 year old boy, that truly loved his girlfriend and planned to do right by her when she got pregnant but the girl chose to terminate the pregnancy without his consent. It is about finding someone that he can talk with and grieve, and work through the pain in his heart.

Life Chain is so much more than life or death. It is about love, sharing, caring, helping and encouraging young women. It is about praying with young women making such important decisions.
The National Life Chain site lifechain.net can give you a listing for a stand in your area, if you would like to learn more about this event, please log on to that page and find your event.

Our event in Greenville, Texas is on 

Sunday, October 28, 2018

From 3:00-4:30pm

We will have pre-approved and pre-printed signs for each person to hold. We will all stand along 

Wesley St from I-30 to Lee St AND Joe Ramsey Blvd from Sayle St to I-30.

You can pick up a sign at Wesley and Joe Ramsey in the parking lot that houses Planet Fitness, Hallmark and Yen Jing.If you would like to speak to someone in Greenville, please feel free to call Stacy Holley at 214-454-7671 or Randy Daw 903-780-1020.

The trouble with our thought process.

When I read posts about friends that have lost loved ones to suicide after years of struggling to be understood through their depression and anxiety, bi-polar, years of abuse, and times of self-loathing, it breaks my heart. We are a society that is so wrapped up in the electronic age of communication and networking that we have forgotten about the face to face, look me in the eye, heart to heart talks and just being with someone physically, not intimately. But there are many things that I have encountered that people need to stop saying..

"You don't have a mental illness". 
We don't want a mental illness, we never asked for it or would we wish it on the person that has caused us the most hurt in this world. By not acknowledging our chemical imbalance says that you believe we do things just because we want to, cry because we are trying to make you feel guilty, intentionally feel bad about ourselves or worthless because we have nothing better to do. Our chemical imbalance comes from generational lines or abuse we sustained as a young infant or child. Acknowledge that people struggle, say a prayer with them but listen. Refusing to talk to another person completely invalidates that person even more. We already feel like we are not worth anyone's time and someone just solidified that feeling. 

"You have to stop letting people get in your head". 
The problem with that is these people were in my heart before my head. Most people in the world, I could care less if they are trying to get in my head, their opinion does NOT matter a hill of beans to me. Those that do "get in my head" and say or do things hurtful are the ones that mattered to me. I think I can probably count on just two hands the people that have the power to truly break me. They are also the people that I love most in the world, that is not saying that love is returned but that is why they are able to get in my head. They know too much about me, they have turned others against me, they have spoken untruths (or maybe they believe their own version of the truth) or they are that close to me. 
I have to be able to get people out of my heart before eradicating them from my head...but do I want that? 

"What do you have to be depressed about, count your blessings instead."

You are so right! My blessings are enormous, my husband of thirty plus years still goes to bat for me, is my biggest defender, protector, and is truly the air that I breathe. He can also be one of those that can be the most hurtful. He tells me I have to "fix" it because of a friendship of his when I am MORE than willing to fix anything I have messed up. I readily know my mistakes, my flaws, my disjointed and when I become emotionally detached. I have so many blessings that I don't know why I get down. There is no reason other than my medication isn't properly getting into my system. 

To be brutally honest, I fight my body and mind every day. I had the Duodenal switch weight loss surgery in 2010 and went from 390lbs to 117lbs in less than a year. Over 270lbs lost and I have kept it off only gaining up to 140lbs before coming back down. My body doesn't absorb fats but it also doesn't absorb vitamins and medications properly. Even though I take medications for depression/anxiety, it depends on my metabolism that day as to what my body has absorbed. I fight, I struggle, I laugh and I love endlessly. I get so much joy out of serving and helping others but all of the work I was doing has ceased and I find myself very lost. I am not a TV watcher or an idol person so I struggle and depression sinks its teeth in. You want answers? Well, so do I! How do I keep my serotonin levels where they should be? 

"What is with everyone having depression/anxiety now days?"

That is the million dollar question BUT by saying that to someone that may be talking to you about their struggles, really can train wreck the conversation. It almost sounds like you are saying that everyone is using it as an excuse for their behavior. I find that everyone is allowed to speak their mind but I am not. Everyone needs to be heard but I am silenced. I am told to STAND up for myself and when I do, I am told to sit down and shut up. My opinion is asked for only out of courtesy but never acknowledged or considered. The areas I am expert on, I rarely am asked for my thoughts.Someone with no knowledge has made a poor decision because they have the authority to. Being overlooked, down-cased, or viewed as broken is what hurts. People telling you that they missed you should bring joy to your heart unless it is followed by "I made such a mess today. I missed you because I had to clean it up myself." This is not how I want to be missed.

"Suicide is selfish".

There are a lot of selfish people in the world but in a mind with a chemical imbalance, that person believes they are helping everyone else by making everyone free of them. I AM disposable, anyone can do and is doing what I used to do. If I am replaceable, why not just rid the world of me. People desire certain people to be around them, to work for them or to be friends with them. People have a preconceived notion of what or who they want and they work to get it. They work to make it happen and they believe things that are not true to justify their actions. I won't do anything that is unethical or wrong or intentionally cause harm to someone I love, but just because I treat others with dignity and respect does not mean it is returned to me. People will also continue to belittle you after the loss of a job or friendship by harassment and many will view that as okay. It depends on the day and the mood as to whether harassment is worthy of the fight or not. Constant belittlement is what chips away at the soul until we can't take it any longer. 

We are all longing to belong, to be appreciated and to be loved...unconditionally. For people with chemical imbalance unconditional doesn't always come. What others THINK of you matters to some people. How you make others feel who won't take the time to get to really KNOW you but just want to condemn you and blame you for their uncomfortable feelings. 

When meetings, outings or get-togethers are constantly cancelled, you eventually stop making plans for that person. It does really hurt especially if that person is in your heart. When other people always come first and you never move up in line, you believe those voices that say, "you are unimportant, you were unwanted and you are replaceable".

Stop saying things that hurt others. Think before you speak and stop emailing or texting and stay off Facebook, because what you mean and how you say it is not how it comes across in black and white.